Cortisol Blues (Demonstration Album)

by BROKEN

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God Lust

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released May 1, 2016

On this recording:

Sean Patrick Murphy:
Guitars // lead vocals // samples // bass // keyboards // noise.

Evan White:
Drums // additional percussion // vocals.

Additional vocals:
Lizzy Callas / Shannon Le Corre on "Need To Bleed" // Lizzy Callas (duet) / Aime Miller (final chorus) on "Irrational Bandages" // Lizzy Callas / Jenny Hall / Shannon Le Corre on "Everything Is Too Heavy" //
Shannon Le Corre (duet) on "Deep Red" //

BROKEN IS:
Sean Patrick Murphy +
Evan White +
Dylan Alexander +

Recorded / mixed / "mastered" at 43 Sound & Noise in PVD, RI during the Winter (something like that) of 2015 / 2016.

Produced by Sean Murphy with the helpful ears of Lizzy Callas.

Thank you for listening.

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Track Name: Detached Summer Vibes
Someone / please turn the lights off for me
We buried 2 in a year right next to him
I carried the caskets away
And never dropped the weight
Never dropped the weight

A dead man
Walking on a tight-rope
A t-shirt and a pack of smokes
Left me with dog tags
And the pack I've smoked

I stay away to feel no pain
I stay away / I fade away

My Mother said:
"Your Father's dead"
He left us for the heavens

I look away
I feel no pain

His headstone reads:
“See you on the other side, man”
It must be nice to believe it
But there is no heaven / no hell
And I don't believe in your gods

I'm a cynical and negative person

I look your way and I feel your pain
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Track Name: Lock You Out
A platform for more private security
A disciple of Christ
A lover of violence and hostility

I don't know anything

We were not created by a god
We are the amnesiac history
Of bad story telling loaded with fallacy

I don't know anything

When I'm dried up
I will put my hand in yours
Then I'll show you no mercy
To make you know it well
Because there is no hell

There is no god
Just a pack of blood thirsty men
We weren't created by gods
We created them

This is why I lock them out
This is why I lock you out
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Track Name: Summer Of 85
A dead man
Found hanging
Swaying in the wind

The scene of a crime
Or the sight and site of a suicide

No closure in my mind
I close my broken eyes

This is the song for the summer of 85
This is the song for the ones who survived

A dead man Found hanging
Swaying in the wind

The scene of a crime
Or the site and sight of a suicide

No closure in our minds
We close our broken eyes

This is the song for the summer of 85
This is the song for the ones who survived
This is the summer a belittled boy's father died

Oh / that summer of 85
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Track Name: Need To Bleed
I broke a window to see into your lives
I choked up when I saw the pain in your eyes
I never knew
I've never known
Your broken homes or tales of broken bones

I wish I could take you all away
To a beautiful place
A calming river
A mountain range
A still frame of a loving memory

Things aren't always what they seem
Sometimes you need to know
You're not the only one that's fucked up

You're not alone
We're not alone

A token of love for those in need
A broken nose for those who need to bleed
A touch of clash for the ones with too much class

"Get the fuck away from me"
Is the anthem of us all
And we're headed for the end of your world
A place where no one walks to
A place where you can only crawl through

Things aren't always what they seem
Sometimes you need to know
You're not the only one that's fucked up

You're not alone
We're not alone

Sometimes you need to bleed to figure it out
Sometimes you need to bleed to share the pain

I’m still here for all of you
Even if you’re not here for me
My gift to you from me
Will be returned eventually

You were never alone
We were never alone

Sometimes you need to bleed

I’m still here for all of you
Even if you’re not here for me

My gift to you from me
Will be returned
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Track Name: Trash Me
If I fall you step right over me
Maybe it's the past
Catching up to remind me
Of the bad things that I’ve done
I don't know
I don't like anyone

It's nice to feel anything at all

You were born to trash me
So trash me

You were born to trash me
So trash me
Throw me away

It’s nice to feel anything at all
Consider me next time around

You were born to trash me
So trash me

If I fall you step right over me
Maybe it's the past
Catching up to remind me
Of the bad things that I’ve done
I don't know
I don't like anyone

It's nice to feel anything at all

You were born to trash me
So trash me

The more I know
The more I know nothing
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Track Name: Everything Is Too Heavy And I'm Ready To Die
A little boy breaks his skull
On a bunk bed
As the step-monster screams
And the Mother struggles to survive

Lonsdale Ave had a dirty little secret

For 3 years
3 years of beatings
3 years of blow
And enough drink
To drown a town's worth of feelings

I know a dirty little secret

There's no life left in your eyes / boy
Everything's too heavy and I'm ready to die

He (John Matthews) was a hunter
An ex-military man
The truest sheep
In wolves' clothing
With a kind and warming way

I watched her face get smashed
Countless times
With the back of his hand
The same hand
That punched me
And tossed me like a rag doll

There's no life left in your eyes / boy
Everything's too heavy and I'm ready to die
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Track Name: Peter Pan Syndrome
I think I'll stay here
In my own world for a while
I have learned to loathe yours
And I don't see why I should stay

Brain vacations are a mild relief
But it's still not enough for me
I'm seasoned to taste
I'm weathered to waste
Ageless in an ocean state
Where the water's been rising

So live the life you love

No age waves
To wash over me
I hold on tight
As the tides take
The life you love out to sea

Pain vacations are a mild relief
But still not enough for me
I'm seasoned to taste
I'm weathered to waste
Ageless in an ocean state
Where the water's been rising

So Live the life you love

The world owes me nothing
The world owes you nothing

So live the life you love
Without me

Brain vacations are a mild relief
But still not enough for me
I'm seasoned to taste
I'm weathered to waste
Ageless in an ocean state
Where the water's been rising

So Live the life you love
Without me
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Track Name: Irrational Bandages
No bandage for the severity
Of a bond severed
By the hands of loud talk
Under the influence of imposters
And forced roles
In a place that I call home
Where I no longer feel safe

No bandage for my wounds
Or the future of
Blood thirsty / lust loving
Fake it till you make it
Fair-weather friends
Who want to guide me
Through their half-truths
And garbage self portrayals
Of perfection

Fuck you
I’m a survivor
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Track Name: Super Inflated
I'll cut your head off
If it gets super inflated
I'll put my trust in you
If you really want me to

We get together
We work together
We get together to keep it deflated

I've got some worries
I've got some doubts
I hold onto some vices
Because I can't go without

We get together
We work together
We get together to keep it medicated

To feel nothing at all

I feel nothing at all
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Track Name: Get Down
We identify with the beggars
The borrowed
And the loved ones living in sorrow
The confusion of youth
I've seen the trash
Where the street meets the curb
Where the tips of bullets are hollowed
A town down to drown in heroin flirtations
Apathetic dealers / blow fiends
Or whatever pill that can be swallowed

Join me and get down
Or Join them and stay down

Teetering the poverty line
When you're trapped living seven to seven
Where broken bones can't exist
We have no time for this
An Injury equals months to years
Of financial recovery
A debt ceiling
to high to reach
While the outbursts of
"What the fuck did I do to end up here?"
And "When the fuck will this end?"
Stop giving you comfort
And start alienating your friends

Join them and get down
Or Join me and stay down
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Track Name: Deep Red (Denial Of A Masochist)
You're next in line
The sweet summer's kind
A loving season
Black out
Or pretend you didn't see it
You tell of love less than lies
Deep red blinds block your eyes
The failure in disguise

You tell of love less than lies

You set fire to the giving tree
We set fire to the giving tree

Old age creeping up on you
A young face hides a withering heart
You fake it / you take it
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Track Name: Can't Stay Here
It's very nice to be here
But I know I can't stay here

I'm coming back home again
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